Going back many moons now, and very rarely do I think of those days, but my first wife, and may I add my soul mate, passed away in her early 30s Christmas time, previous to that, I lost my mum and dad in there 50s also my brother 20 yr old, sister in her 30s, I was left with2 children, selfish of me I suppose, but id had enough, didn't know which way to turn, so I searched with an old knitting needle for a cross member in the ceiling of my home, strung myself up, and jumped, all the ceiling came down on top of me, and I lay there in a heap, as you can see, im still here and even in this sick a