i personally know 2 people who are in this position, and beilive me killing anyone is not at the top of their list, 1 has taken to their house and wont do anything but sit in the chair feeling sorry for themself, the other is on a rollercoaster, gave all his old guns away a purchased a new left handed 687 beretta hes out everyday even though he can hardly walk. then hes in the pub every night with all his mates. he says he will keep this up untill he drops. belive me if it happend to you your priorities would soon change.