Keith I know your unsteady on your feet at the minute and your up and down if a dog is not the answer get a cat or buggie you need something to focus on every one on here is rooting for you you aren't with out help on here or outside I know if you ask on here you won't be without my mum is dying and would love nothing more than life but I cringe when I hear folk like you talk Keith you may need mental health involved or counselling but good luck buddy and I hope you keep posting