not even winding you up but you genuinely should delete your account and move onto something else, to save further embarrassment .
Very few people have time in life to work dogs, people choose to MAKE time,some more than others, often at great sacrifice.
if you don’t have the passion to make time at least be honest with yourself and stop bullshitting.
alternatively give this a try at least you can box it up and forget about it till next time ?
All the best