valentino 0 Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 maybe im losing the plot, or have a phobeia of work..... this is my point... im a personal trainer/sports therapist and have been for the last 5 years (im 23), anyway up until this last year i was doing very well and enjoying it....i looked forward to going to work and loved the money....now from jan/feb this year things have started to 'go off the rails' abit...in the sense that i left my secure job, and started doing the odd private session during the week just to keep the bills paid.....why i left my job, well all i can describe it was that i really started to 'worry' about going in...for no reason whatsoever?.....and gradually my private training and massage sessions have getting less and less, until now im not training anyone and now i need to get a job again, as my money has nearly ran out....so i have applied for a job and got it and start tomorrow moring at 7.30....i found out that i start tommorrow at 4pm today, and i have been worrying ever since....now dont get me wrong im not a soft cock, im very confident etc and feel fine,..but for some reason im dreading work and i know im not going in tommorrow, but ive been fighting with myself for 6 hrs now....and i know i have to go there and i know i shouldnt have left my other job, but i cant face it....im sweating and very very tense..yet i know that there is no reason for me to be like that.....and as soon as i make the desision to not go, i will feel relaxed and at peace....until then its hard to describe what im feeling but i think im cracking up......its not a matter of being lazy or bone idol as im constantly busy with my running dogs and gamefowl...infact addicted and im not happy unless im running dogs or sorting my fowl, and other stock....and maybe thats part of the problem....anyway i must have lost the plot as ive just wrote all this on a computer screen to get it off my chest...yet cant say it to my family or friends......also may i add, i have never been like this, ive always been successful and so is my family, and i know that is my route, but for some reason i cant do it? now i know its easy to say,..''just give yur head a shake you cock'' and i would be the first person to say that to if i read a post like this, but believe me i have give my head plenty of shakes.... i know everyone gets sick of there job,...i used to.....but you get on with it...this is different valentino......off to see the shrink Quote Link to post Share on other sites
danielt 1 Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 (edited) No job no money ! No money, no dogging or fowling ! So get out and work soft nob ! Edited October 18, 2007 by danielt Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest bob Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 sounds like you getting a little agoraphobic see the doc get some pills youll be ok Quote Link to post Share on other sites
AIRGUNNER 1 Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 get dome drugs from the doctor to sort your head out mate all the best :wink: Quote Link to post Share on other sites
terriermad 4 Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 maybe im losing the plot, or have a phobeia of work..... this is my point... im a personal trainer/sports therapist and have been for the last 5 years (im 23), anyway up until this last year i was doing very well and enjoying it....i looked forward to going to work and loved the money....now from jan/feb this year things have started to 'go off the rails' abit...in the sense that i left my secure job, and started doing the odd private session during the week just to keep the bills paid.....why i left my job, well all i can describe it was that i really started to 'worry' about going in...for no reason whatsoever?.....and gradually my private training and massage sessions have getting less and less, until now im not training anyone and now i need to get a job again, as my money has nearly ran out....so i have applied for a job and got it and start tomorrow moring at 7.30....i found out that i start tommorrow at 4pm today, and i have been worrying ever since....now dont get me wrong im not a soft cock, im very confident etc and feel fine,..but for some reason im dreading work and i know im not going in tommorrow, but ive been fighting with myself for 6 hrs now....and i know i have to go there and i know i shouldnt have left my other job, but i cant face it....im sweating and very very tense..yet i know that there is no reason for me to be like that.....and as soon as i make the desision to not go, i will feel relaxed and at peace....until then its hard to describe what im feeling but i think im cracking up......its not a matter of being lazy or bone idol as im constantly busy with my running dogs and gamefowl...infact addicted and im not happy unless im running dogs or sorting my fowl, and other stock....and maybe thats part of the problem....anyway i must have lost the plot as ive just wrote all this on a computer screen to get it off my chest...yet cant say it to my family or friends......also may i add, i have never been like this, ive always been successful and so is my family, and i know that is my route, but for some reason i cant do it? now i know its easy to say,..''just give yur head a shake you cock'' and i would be the first person to say that to if i read a post like this, but believe me i have give my head plenty of shakes.... i know everyone gets sick of there job,...i used to.....but you get on with it...this is different valentino......off to see the shrink i get like that when i start a new job!!!!! the answer is, 20ml valium, after you have finnished the first day you will be fine. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
valentino 0 Posted October 18, 2007 Author Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 [i get like that when i start a new job!!!!! the answer is, 20ml valium, after you have finnished the first day you will be fine. [/quote i know what your saying...but this is 'abit' different.....and its hard to explain without it coming across as bone idolness, or being a daft c#nt...as both of them im not lol valentino Quote Link to post Share on other sites
terriermad 4 Posted October 18, 2007 Report Share Posted October 18, 2007 [i get like that when i start a new job!!!!! the answer is, 20ml valium, after you have finnished the first day you will be fine. [/quote i know what your saying...but this is 'abit' different.....and its hard to explain without it coming across as bone idolness, or being a daft c#nt...as both of them im not lol valentino good luck. you can always go on the dole!!! lol. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Frank Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 (edited) I would see your Gp, who will asses you and might be able to help, by sending you to a spacialist. Dont ignore it, sounds like a touch of anxiety. All the best, keep us posted. Edited October 19, 2007 by Frank Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Groverdog 0 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 Sounds like you do need to see a GP and get there help. Not nice at all to feel so anxious about anything but i think that getting it off your chest is the first step to getting better. All the best and i hope you resolve this asap. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
jasper65 6 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 By the sounds of it valentino you've lost alot of enthusiasm for the line of work you do. I felt the same mate a good few years back when I felt pushed into a corner on a dead ender! I look back at it and even now wonder how I stuck it so long without tripping over the top... I'm not trying to play god here mate but perhaps you have to listen to yourself and retrain for something that would really rock your boat again? Lifes far too short mate so if there is something deep down you want to do go for it! do all the Homework and train hard and you'll walk it, at 23 you can grab another trade no problem and still be on top.... Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Scallywag 78 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 (edited) You've got a couple of choices here - you can either think there's something wrong with you, get it fixed and try to carry on as you have before. Or you can assume that there's a good reson for feeling like you do and try to find out what it is and what you need. You say you're used to being 'succesful' and so is your whole family. Maybe the definition of succes you're used to isn't actually what you want or need? You're Ok with your dogs etc, so start with that - that works for you. Maybe you're feeling like this because what you've been trying to achieve in life isn't right for you, doesn't meet your needs and has to change, and the part of you that knows this is sabotaging you, creating anxiety to stop you doing stuff which really isn't right for you now. I remember reading posts by you expressing the ectasy you experience with your dogs - follow that feeling, find out what YOU (as opposed to your family) want and need in your life and you might find you have the energy and focus to make it happen. There's a conflict at the moment between the part of you that wants to carry on as normal and the part that doesn't - that might be what you need to sort out. Just try seeing your anxiety etc as INFORMATION rather than a problem and see how you go? And good luck mate Edited October 19, 2007 by Scallywag Quote Link to post Share on other sites
valentino 0 Posted October 19, 2007 Author Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 cheers for the replies...appreciate it..... i think there is alot for me to think about and consider what i want thanks again valentino Quote Link to post Share on other sites
bullet 125 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 you've just got the biggest and hardest bit out of the way without even knowing it, YOU'VE SPOKE OPENLY ABOUT IT!, now i suggest you go and see your gp, tell him about it too, Quote Link to post Share on other sites
terriermad 4 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 By the sounds of it valentino you've lost alot of enthusiasm for the line of work you do. I felt the same mate a good few years back when I felt pushed into a corner on a dead ender! I look back at it and even now wonder how I stuck it so long without tripping over the top... I'm not trying to play god here mate but perhaps you have to listen to yourself and retrain for something that would really rock your boat again? Lifes far too short mate so if there is something deep down you want to do go for it! do all the Homework and train hard and you'll walk it, at 23 you can grab another trade no problem and still be on top.... good advice jasper... Quote Link to post Share on other sites
terriermad 4 Posted October 19, 2007 Report Share Posted October 19, 2007 maybe im losing the plot, or have a phobeia of work..... this is my point... im a personal trainer/sports therapist and have been for the last 5 years (im 23), anyway up until this last year i was doing very well and enjoying it....i looked forward to going to work and loved the money....now from jan/feb this year things have started to 'go off the rails' abit...in the sense that i left my secure job, and started doing the odd private session during the week just to keep the bills paid.....why i left my job, well all i can describe it was that i really started to 'worry' about going in...for no reason whatsoever?.....and gradually my private training and massage sessions have getting less and less, until now im not training anyone and now i need to get a job again, as my money has nearly ran out....so i have applied for a job and got it and start tomorrow moring at 7.30....i found out that i start tommorrow at 4pm today, and i have been worrying ever since....now dont get me wrong im not a soft cock, im very confident etc and feel fine,..but for some reason im dreading work and i know im not going in tommorrow, but ive been fighting with myself for 6 hrs now....and i know i have to go there and i know i shouldnt have left my other job, but i cant face it....im sweating and very very tense..yet i know that there is no reason for me to be like that.....and as soon as i make the desision to not go, i will feel relaxed and at peace....until then its hard to describe what im feeling but i think im cracking up......its not a matter of being lazy or bone idol as im constantly busy with my running dogs and gamefowl...infact addicted and im not happy unless im running dogs or sorting my fowl, and other stock....and maybe thats part of the problem....anyway i must have lost the plot as ive just wrote all this on a computer screen to get it off my chest...yet cant say it to my family or friends......also may i add, i have never been like this, ive always been successful and so is my family, and i know that is my route, but for some reason i cant do it? now i know its easy to say,..''just give yur head a shake you cock'' and i would be the first person to say that to if i read a post like this, but believe me i have give my head plenty of shakes.... i know everyone gets sick of there job,...i used to.....but you get on with it...this is different valentino......off to see the shrink how did your first day go mate???????? are you feeling any better??? Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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