As some of you know

[Alsone 789]

Only just seen this. I too hope you have a wonderful day out and that she really enjoys it. You'll have to get her a photo and a little trophy to sit on the bedside as a reminder. Best wishes to all of you.

[bigmac 97kt 13,730]

Well lads looks like it may not happen she is very ill at the moment

and she may not even make going on holiday on monday they are booked into a log cabin for a week

at keilder .

But im still hoping  that she will have a few good few days so we can pull it off

BUT looks like it will have to be up hear if we can she is getting very tiered every day now

and the simplest thing is running her down

iv spoken to phil and he has offered to come up with trish with his clay trap and his new 28g shot gun for her

but its just a case of if she is well enough to do it .

Si has offered to come up as well with the 410 and his trap

atvbjimmy

 

[Sausagedog 7,381]

We are near Longframlington next week.

My thoughts will be with you when I look across to the forest.

[FOXHUNTER 5,020]

32 minutes ago, Sausagedog said:

We are near Longframlington next week.

My thoughts will be with you when I look across to the forest.

What you doing up in beautiful Northumberland 

[philpot 4,925]

Yes it is sad that we might not be able to pull this off but as Si has said, Trish and myself can bring our trap and the 28gauge if you have some land Jimmy.

I was keeping this bit quiet but I have a little trophy on it's way with   'HOT SHOT NATALIE'   engraved on it so no matter what happens Jimmy, you can pass on that just for a bit of fun but don't tell her until you have to just in case we can get her to fire a few shots.

Phil

[philpot 4,925]

Just arrived.

[Elchapo 3,090]

Sorry to hear this mate , I don’t no where about you are in the country but I’m from midlands if your close enough I have a silenced 410 shotgun that  has no kick whatsoever if you have a licence or have a friend close by with a license you welcome to borrow it for a bit to get her out with it 

[bigmac 97kt 13,730]

On 11/09/2020 at 11:24, Elchapo said:

Sorry to hear this mate , I don’t no where about you are in the country but I’m from midlands if your close enough I have a silenced 410 shotgun that  has no kick whatsoever if you have a licence or have a friend close by with a license you welcome to borrow it for a bit to get her out with it 

Thats a very nice offer EL

but im too far away mate im just past newcastle in northumberland

thank you all who have offered there kind words and help

it means a lot to me

and if she dose have a few days when she is well we will get out

and make this happen .

atvbjimmy

 

[bigmac 97kt 13,730]

Iv been sat here for the last 30mins trying to put words to paper kind of thing

Nat came back off holiday from the lakes and was rushed to hospital

where they scanned her again ,

The cancer is now in her spine and all her bones and as a result she is now paralysed in her left arm and parts of her right hand

and they say it will travel down her spine with in two or three weeks .

She asked today how long she had left but i told her i did not want to know

Iv just watched beauty and the beast with her and all we did was cry she is my baby and i cant take this away

i feel so helpless like iv let her down in some way .

So much ii want to say and so much i want to do and i know she dose not have the time

Im hurting so much as i cant even take her pain away

Just the other week i was sat in a field at 2am on my hands and knees praying to god to take me and leave my daughter alone

take me ,,,take me now i dont need to say goodbye to any one

but life is not a film full of wonders and magic

Its full of hurt and cruelty .

Any way lads the shot gun thing is not going to happen now

and i think xmas is going to be a lonely one with one seat empty at the table this year

jimmy

 

[Sausagedog 7,381]

3 minutes ago, bigmac 97kt said:

Iv been sat here for the last 30mins trying to put words to paper kind of thing

Nat came back off holiday from the lakes and was rushed to hospital

where they scanned her again ,

The cancer is now in her spine and all her bones and as a result she is now paralysed in her left arm and parts of her right hand

and they say it will travel down her spine with in two or three weeks .

She asked today how long she had left but i told her i did not want to know

Iv just watched beauty and the beast with her and all we did was cry she is my baby and i cant take this away

i feel so helpless like iv let her down in some way .

So much ii want to say and so much i want to do and i know she dose not have the time

Im hurting so much as i cant even take her pain away

Just the other week i was sat in a field at 2am on my hands and knees praying to god to take me and leave my daughter alone

take me ,,,take me now i dont need to say goodbye to any one

but life is not a film full of wonders and magic

Its full of hurt and cruelty .

Any way lads the shot gun thing is not going to happen now

and i think xmas is going to be a lonely one with one seat empty at the table this year

jimmy

 

Oh Jimmy. We are in tears here mate.

[philpot 4,925]

As with Bernard, Trish and myself have shed a few today with the texts and now this. Out hearts go out to you all my old friend.

Phil

[liP 699]

Welling up here myself Jimmy, reading your words. Thoughts are with you and your family buddy. 

Steve 

[Stavross 13,709]

I know I don’t know you, but my heart is breaking for you and your family, it’s a terrible Illness that has affected my family and friends, after reading your posts and the way you speak about her one thing is for certain, you haven’t let her down in any way, the love you have shown her will of helped her through this terrible time

[si brown 8,486]

I’ve not commented on this post till now cos I speak to Jimmy almost every day!

I tell you what lads no one deserves to go through this, it’s horrific for everyone involved... Nat is a lovely lass and a bloody  good mum!

I think about what goes on I this world and I’m lost for words.. it’s no walk in the park I know that:(

[FOXHUNTER 5,020]

I dont know you Jimmy but my heart goes out to you , I cant begin to imagine  what you are going through.  I have a daughter too and couldn't cope if she was I'll like your daughter.  I am fighting back the tears as I read this,  truly heartbreaking.